How do you know where you should be in life? I turn 34 this year. Some friends are married, other are single. Right now none are engaged, or as I like to call it, inbetween, How do you know you found the right person in life? Why do so many people get divorced? Did pre-baby boomers just stay together because they were married?
I am happy, I am in love but sometimes I feel like I let people down. When you take the next step, you can have down days, but if I take myself down, I really effect someone elses life. Thats a scary though, ya know?
I have lived on my own, or with my ex for a long time. Living in NYC was great but the relationship was sour. We were together for all the wrong reasons. This has happened twice and thank god none of them made it to the next level. I know this one will if I continue the route I am going on. I know its positive, I just have to remember that.
How do you know you will love the same person in 2, 5 or 20 years? Both of my parents are in their second marriage and they are happier their second time around. Who the fuck wants to go through that. Then I have an ex who is under 30, divorced and has a child. She misses out on a lot of things, but when she is my age, her son will be able to do what he wants and she can have a life. Its almost the reverse of what most people do.
Anyway, I am looking for an apartment this week and next week. The job is going well and I guess life is good. I need to focus on reality a little more.