I am watching The Simpsons and its kind of a depressing episode tonight. My anxiety is kicking up about this new job, this should be an interesting evening.
Japan is another place I really want to go. I feel like I would love the light, the technology, the food and the cultures. I really didn't have any Japanese friends growing up, just Chinese and Korean. I still think London is a best first destination because it lets me adapt to another culture, but easily since it is similar to ours, especially living in NYC most of my life. I think once I have a taste of Europe, Japan would be great. My brother lives in Italy yet I never had any desire to go to Italy or France.
I had a nice evening last night. I was surprised, not by the company but that I have issolated myself into depression over the past year. I really think if I get this job, other positive things will start to happen. I need to find an apartment with Brie and who knows how that will go with both location and finances.
Sunday night I usually really want to get high, Its nice to know that I actually have some consequential thinking on my part, Too much to lose and I have used all of my strikes. I was basically robbed this weekend and in the long run, I am happy it happened. It made me realize the bullshit that I put myself through just to take me out of my element. I don't need this, I am too old for the bullshit and the money needs to be going to places like an apartment and a vacation.
For the first time in a long time I can say that I am happy. Certain situations could be better but I just have to be grateful for what I do have.
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